I wanna be more patient. Not because I am fasting as if I say that, it seems like I do not have to calm down after this month. I wanna be more patient as it is the right thing to do. I talked to Andros about moral judgment as it is his dissertation topic. And this one is my moral judgment, driven by mind and guidance from prophet S.A.W
I copy from a site of his saying, the one I read when I was a kid and the one that I just remember after a long time of forgotten:-
“Orang yang kuat itu bukan terletak pada kemampuan berkelahi, tetapi orang yang kuat itu adalah yang dapat mengendalikan diri mereka ketika sedang marah.” (Hadis riwayat Imam Ahmad)
Translated as ‘A strong person is not the person who throws his adversaries to the ground. A strong person is the person who contains himself when he is angry’ (I took the translation from here)
I told Andros, I believe that if we are doing good things towards others, we will be rewarded – like what goes around comes around. Andros joked, ‘so someone who do bad things to you will be going through bad stuff?’
‘No, I never wish for that’, I laughed. Perhaps I was lying a little bit, but that is something I have to reorientate myself as well.
Anyway, if there is one thing I wanna achieve through this fasting month, I wanna have a lot of patience not just when I deal with other people but also during my study and other stuff.
BTW, I just came back from Newcastle. Me, Andros, Kak Shifa, Kak Nur and Nurul (Brunei – sorry Nurul, got to many Nurul so I have to put a label) went and break our fast in Newc. Andros is going back to London tomorrow morning. Sigh, it’s the start of people going home. Andros is one of my good buddy – I’m dedicating this post to him:)