Friendship is a tricky business. Nah, it is not a business anyway. But if you are doing a business with a friend, then it’s gonna be different. At least that is how I see it.
I told a friend of mine, ‘if I know it was her who is also my friend, I would be more flexible’. Nah, I am not referring to some bureaucracy which I’m giving him/her a free pass. Or giving him/her a special treatment because he/she is my friend while everyone is entitled to the same kind of treatment. I love to think that I am not that kind of person who give certain favour to people they like. At least, I’m wishing for it. Can’t be certain of myself.
Some people call it karma. I don’t like to use that term. I checked Wikipedia and even it says that the the concept is contradistinction from the Abrahamic religion. Let’s just say when you do good deed, you’ll be rewarded. And for someone that it close to your heart after your family, friends are among the people I am fond of. So what’s so bad about giving up few Pounds (or Ringgit) to someone who are close to my heart.
Because sometimes they will be giving you something more than that. Like cooking for me when I was sick, or making teh tarik when I was feeling spoilt (read: manja dan mengada-ngada). Or laughing over Britannia High or Glee. Or listening to my sorrow and joy. Or simply by giving me a company.
I just think that friends should be appreciated. That is why most of the people are not our friends. Because we do business with them. We exchange money with services. Or doing work together because both of us shares the responsibilities. Or help someone because they really need helps badly. That is what I think. At least that is how I see on the rest of the people I am not fond of. Getting paid of doing tutoring because I am not your friend, but I need the money. Need was not the right word. Perhaps ‘want’?; Or perhaps doing something together because that is my assignment. Or helping someone in need because I got something extra. It is still a business. Coz by doing good deed, I am hoping to get paid, but not from him.
The deal with friends are different. I do wanna do it because I am fond of you. Because that’s how I appreciate you. Since you had been appreciating me as well. In a lot of way. For example, knowing and understanding whenever I say I don’t wanna talk, or I need to stop this YMing just because I’m hungry and I want to grab some food. Or understanding me for not calling you for a couple of days because I’m juggling back with my life after getting sick, or not calling you for a couple of week because we are oceans aparts or not calling you for a couple of months because I’m just lazy. That is what friends do. We know we care of each other. But we don’t have all the time in the world.
Nah, I’m not a very good friend. All of the saying doesn’t make me better than most people. I am just wishing I would be.
Defining who my friends are and who are not is just another sign that I am …not to say bad, but normal. Be a man, and treat everyone the same. But if you have someone who you love, would you treat her/him differently? I have a list of people who I adore, respect and fond of them. I am just being human for treating them differently.
So yeah. If I know it was you who is also my friend, I would react differently. But the boat is sailing and in all of the fairness, the deal has been made. Pity. Next time. Next time.
But yeah, friendship is a tricky business. And once you treat it like a business deal, I’m done with the friendship and let’s do business. For real!
[Soundtrack of the post: Glee - Keep Holding On. P.S: Zeah, you need to see this. I bet you gonna bit teary. Keke. Yang nih versi fan made. Versi asal lebih best sebab recapture the whole moment. Tapi blehlah. ]
