Pagi Hari di Durham

Guess where I am?

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The title says it all.

Esok balik UK. Bersemangat!!!

3 weeks of lot of stuff. Nah, not much. Mostly revolve around the kids of House of Pumpkin. But that was a good one.

Dapat mesej dari Rosmin, saying he’s missing them (padahal baru jumpa waktu petang). Dapat mesej dari Zakia juga yang dia rindukan HoP. Melihat kawan-kawan lain yang terimpak lebih, aku rasa kurang sedih. Agaknya kot. We’ll see. I will probably reached Durham and ended up missing each one of them and cry. Lol.

I shared about the crying thingy with one of the students – Shark. I asked him, ‘what do you think about you crying in public?’, that was after talking how emotional the farewell of House of Pumpkin was. Dia cakap dia sebak, tapi malu nak nangis.

Then I told him, ‘well, sekolah menengah – don’t cry. It show weakness. Nanti dah masuk universiti, cry – it’s an asset, coz girl appreciate sensitive guys’. Well. Not necesarilly true, but some girls I met told me that. Perhaps coz they like guys being sensitive; or perhaps they just like that particular guy and they don’t mind him doing whatever – laugh, cry, acting silly etc.

Daniel told me about their ’sentap’ usage in class. Daniel and Zam were the only crews (among those 13) who come from a different class. Katanya, dalam kelas diorang, diorang berdua still guna ’sentap’ when my sister teaching, tapi rest of the class tak faham la. Kelas sebelah lebih banyak guna, dan suma bergelak ketawa. Sentap. Abis rosak bebudak ini. Jangan laa diorang guna ‘keji’ pulak.

Naim pulak dah mula menggunakan terma ‘adik-adik ikan’. Ah, apalah aku mengajar kat bebudak nih.

I asked them to practise English. Waktu HoP, aku bersembang dengan beberapa pelajar perempuan yang dah tersingkir. Telling them how I am also from a rural area school, but I was lucky for being able to have friends who wanted to try to speak English. I told them the reason where it all started – about how my friends love to hangout at my house (due to the distance from school was just about 100m), and coz we wanna talk about girls and stuff (ahem), we conversed in English so that me mom and dad won’t understand it.

Well, just telling these kids that English is supposed to be relaxing.

Seriously, last couple of weeks revolve around these kids.

And as much as I hope to motivate them, they had already motivate me.

1 year left and let’s do it right.
Let’s go back and let’s finish this.
Be prepared for extra 6 months, but that’s it.
Let’s go back and let’s finish it.
Coz I want to come back and work and do this thing all over again.

That’s my shout.

Well, if I could share an open secret, it would be that – I wasn’t really excited about coming back to Malaysia. And the reason is plain stupid – I hate ‘people’ being nosy about marriage and stuff. Meeting these kids restore back my motivation and reminds me of why I wanna be there in UK at the very first place. And with that, thank you (and stop being nosy!).

The HoPpers are running wild around Candi Lembah Bujang

Bebudak House of Melbourne (Naeimah sister diorang). Nih gambar ni diorang amik ngan Zali, tapi penuh dengan semangat berposing yang tinggi!! That’s the way to go. Hehe.

Lepas abis program, kitorang gi melepak kat Secret Recipe kat Village Mall

Zakia, Kak Khalidah dan Rosmin. Kak Khalidah dengan Rosmin tengah mengeji aku sebenarnya tuh. Cis cis.

Tak sempat naik Tree Top Walk sebab dah tutup. So bergambar kat pintu jer.

Dalam kereta nak ke Sedim, terdengar lagu Hush Hush dalam kereta Rosmin. Kitorang gelak over the lyrics. Waktu tu aku naik dengan Rosmin, Kak Khalidah, Zakia dan Naeimah. Terus kitorang membayangkan kalau Kak Khalidah jadi lead singer, dan bebudak crews jadi yang ‘hush hush, hush hush’. So this is how we imagine la. The song is below.

Thank you for tainting a piece of my heart coz it was a good colour
Thank you for making me cry coz it was a good feeling
Thank you for keeping me still while you jump, run and hop
Thank you for making this goodbye the hardest so I want to return
Thank you for sharing those smiles coz I need it
Thank you for sharing those tears coz I need it
Thank you for sharing those pains, those laugters, those silents coz we need it

Thank you for making me wanting to sail this ocean again
Thank you for letting me know one is not the loneliest number
Thank you for making me being me

Thank you for these 13 lines I will be missing
Thank you for one lucky number 7 I am counting
Thanks.

*8.22pm, 20 Feb 10

Zeah,

Aku baru lepas abis jumpa dengan Rosmin. Dia pusing datang rumah aku. Petang tadi aku call dia (lepas dia call aku, miscall sebab aku kat toilet), dia bagitau dia dah terasa sunyi, dan mula rindu bebudak tu. Haha. Dia dah dapat effect yang sama macam kitorang.

Bebudak Labu Besar are great. And doing activity with them is such a pleasure. Tu sebab aku nak ko datang. Sebab aku tau ko mesti bleh masuk giler-giler punya dengan bebudak ni. Takpe lah. Tahun depan ko datang ek.

Tahun ni best sebab kawan-kawan yang aku bawa – Kak Khalidah, Zakia, Zali dan Rosmin – semuanya sporting. Bebudak nih masuk abis dengan kitorang sampaikan perkataan ’sentap’ pun telah diorang pelajari. Hari tu waktu aku terbaring kat sofa rumah kak aku, salah sorang crew budak form 6 jerit kat kawan dia. ‘Wah, hangpa mengeji aku dalam facebook!’. Juga sudah belajar perkataan ‘keji’. Aku dah warn diorang supaya tidak guna dengan cikgu-cikgu. Nanti sentap cikgu-cikgu diorang.

Hari Rabu aritu aku nangis tiga kali. Gila ala-ala berderu yang takleh tahan. Well, kalo ko ada kat sini pun, mesti kita dah menangis bersama-sama.

Sekali waktu pagi, aku drive. Pastu bercakap fasal sorang budak ni. Nama dia Azim. Dia dah masuk program ni 5 tahun dah. Waktu penutup dia bagi ucapan, dia cakap, ‘program ni adalah benda yang paling bermakna dalam hidup saya’. Sambil dia cakap, dia menangis. Waktu tu jugak, terus aku tersembur depan bebudak tu. Tak pernah okeh nangis depan bebudak. Tapi kali ni takleh tahan. Agaknya sebab aku rasa appreciated kot.

Second, aku naik kereta dengan Rosmin yang on the way ke Lata Sedim. Ada 3 orang lagi kat belakang. Sekali kat mp3 player Rosmin (yang disambung masuk ke audio kereta) keluar lagu indon apa tu yang lirik dia ‘… rasa ingin mati’. Walaupun aku tak suka lirik tu sebab agak ‘wah.. perlula kan’, tapi terus terjiwang dan mengalir lagi.

Third time, waktu bercakap dengan kak aku semalam.

Ah.. giler.Sangat memberi impak mendalam okeh program ni.

I hope you’ll be here next year la Zeah.

Nanti-nanti aku upload video. Sekarang tak mampu tengok. Nanti terus terasa sunyi.

Aiya.

Well, btw, aku dah makin bersemangat! Nak perabih cepat-cepat study, supaya bleh balik tahun depan dan buat lagi program ni!!!

-Lutfi

Around midnight, aku sampai balik Merbok. So it mark that the program finally unoficially finished last night.

Habis hari Ahad lagi. Tapi kitorang laggingkan perpisahan dengan melepak beramai-ramai dengan crew kat Secret Recipe, pastu gi air panas kat Baling dan petang kelmarin pergi mandi kat Sedim (nak naik tree top walk tapi dah tutup).

Was a good season. That was a good run.

Nantilah cerita lagi.