Pagi Hari di Durham

Tajuk ini ialah pesanan dari supervisor yek. Ada sedikit mislabelling dalam paper yang dibentangkan. Buat mock-presentation tadi. Dah bila sampai part tu, aku punya tone sedikit kesian agaknya, jadi supervisor aku cakap camtu.

Agaknya ini juga proses membina karisma. Kalau presentation dalam keadaan kasihan, nampak sangat tidak best kot. But anyway, ‘don’t be too apologetic’. I’ll remember that.

Mock-presentation tadi tak best. Sampai kat part ujung-ujung baru terasa aura keluar. I’m an average presenter. Sometimes I’m good, I can feel it. Sometimes I’m baad, I can feel it as well. Tu sebab aku tak kisah sangat orang-orang komen fasal lagu aku. Biarpun dari segi vokal. It is not a good vocal, it might be nice to be heard, it might be because of the twist that makes you wanna hear it, and I’m alright for any reason.

Tadi baca blog junior aku yang begitu sedih. Janganlah terlalu inferior. Nanti motivasi down. I would like to think that I accept my weakness while having some strength. Tak mau share kelemahan sebab nanti berbaur kasihan. But I know I am good in some stuff, and that may includes video editing, handling game or making one  ataupun mengambil hati bakal mak mentua.

Nah, I would love to think I am not being riak about it. Video editing is from years of training. So, if you’ve been doing something for years, you’ll be good. Not because you are good, just because you are used to it. Of course, it’s all come from God as if He doesn’t grant me the ability, I won’t be able to do it. And He can takes away anytime He wants it.

So, what’s my point? Dear, if you are reading this, know that  we are special in our own way (tetiba teringat lagu Barney). All of us have our strengths and weaknesses. That doesn’t mean we have to admit defeat for our weakness. Hmm, I need to remind myself of the previous line.

Keke. Tetiba termotivasi lebih dengan nasihat supervisor.

Oh, tapi tadi semua orang ingat aku dah gi Jerman. Kak Dijah siap antar sms (rupanya sebab internet dia off). Aku baru bangun tido. Dia punya text cakap fasal ‘Glee’. Aku terfikir, sejak bila Kak Dijah Durham minat menatang Glee nih? Oh, rupanya Kak Dijah Armidale. Tengah mamai tadi.

Jumpa Kak Nur, Kak Zarina dan Abang Amir pun ingat aku dah pergi dah. Belum belum. Flight malam ni. Japgi tengah hari baru nak pergi. Rileks ar.

Beg pun masih belum dipack. Takyah risau sangat. Sumbat-sumbat jer baju masuk dalam beg. Nanti sampai sana, kelepaq-kelepaq sikit (betui tau ni bahasa kedah, ish. Mahadi, betui ka?), dah okey.

Oh, tadi naik bas, drebar bas tu moody. Dia orang baru kot sebab aku sebut ‘Durham Hospital’, dia tanya Durham County Hospital, yang mana dari stop tuh ke hospital tuh, takyah naik bas pun takpa. Aku berhenti awal pun dia macam nak marah. Sambil turun bas, aku terfikir, ‘nih cranky sebab lapar la ni’.

Anyway, aku pun sudah lapar. Untuk elakkan cranky, ciao!

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